Scare Tactics!

For those of you who know me, my eccentricities, and "kookiness", become something of a second nature to you after a while. However, if i have moments when i never cease to scare, or surprise, you by my eccentric, or kooky, behaviour, then believe me; You have no idea how badly i can scare myself.

Oh yes! you heard correctly, "I can scare myself". For the sake of being normal, or at least retaining a claim to normality in some way, shape or form, i hope some of you have had at least one experiance where you've scared yourselves. If not, then i feel like a total fool, very much so.

The other morning, after blogging, i decided to sleep for two hours before getting up for Uni. This was at 4:30am. It was 5am when i woke up to turn over. Being rather dark, still, my cross looked like a black shadow, and in the form of some creepy- crawly. I shit myself. I jumped back. Obviously, the damn thing attached to my neck moved with me. I was still under the impression it was an insect. So i begun to swat at it. After about five minutes of complete shock i picked up my phone and used the light to check my bed. It was only then, half awake and still scared- shitless, that i realised the stupid insect was in fact my cross.

I vowed to never sleep with the damn thing on AGAIN. Lying down, and calming my still racing heart i begun to see the absurdity of the whole ordeal. I begun to laugh. I literally had to cover my mouth with my pillow to drown out the sound, i feared i was laughing that hard. Of course, i couldn't get to sleep again after that. However, the memory, playing over and over again, kept me smiling till i was able to watch sun rise.

For those, again, who know me, and for those who don't, sun rise and sun set are my favourite parts of the day. It was at a time like this i felt profoundly blessed. There i was, lying in my bed, watching the sun rise, beginning a new day, and i had already begun mine in perhaps the most hilarious ways possible. Not to mention, the most embarrassing way possible.!

To feel so happy, and then to be so blessed as to see the sun rise, for me, provides me with something of an incentive to keep living. It's at times like these, being happy and seeing the sun rise, that i feel as though i am laying my eyes on the very first sun rise in the history of the world. I feel that special, that happy, that elated. It's times like these i have to look back on and remind myself there are plenty more times like it to come. Always, i look forward to the next kooky thing i will do. It's me! To some i'm just weird. That's cool. To others i'm eccentric; Lovely. To others i'm unique; Getting there. To others i'm just John; there we go.! That's what i like. All the things i do, whether good, bad, stupid, funny, or down right strange, are things i do because it's what i do. The choices i make, and the effects they have; whether that be: funny, upsetting, good or bad, have these affects, and more, because i am precisely who i am, and will make choices based on the way i choose to present my being.

So there you go! I scared myself shitless, and managed to have a good day too :) What else could i ask for? Of course, i could say: "Well there is just one thing...!", however, these moments only come once every blue- moon. Hence, i want this to last. I'm glad things turned out the way they did. If they hadn't happend such as they had, then this article would not have been published, and you, most likely, wouldn't be laughing, or shaking your head bewilderedely at the scree as you read, with a smile upon your face thinking: "What a nutter!".